Time Flies

We have had such a wonderful Christmas break.  Doug and I were both off for several days and we've had a lot of wonderful family time with Eli and each of our families.  But as always, the Christmas holidays have been busy, busy, busy.  And that's not going to change for us until Emily decides to make her appearance.

Things have been so crazy that we haven't stuck to Eli's routine much at all and while he's very laid back and handles change pretty well, enough was enough on Friday.  He was completely out of sorts almost all day and by the time we got to bed time he just couldn't calm down.  So while Doug took a shower, I took him into Emily's room and rocked him in the glider.  He would ask me to sing and then, when he started to fall asleep would say "Stop it mama!".  Eventually he let go and fell asleep while I kept rocking, waiting for Doug to be able to put him in his bed.

While I sat there holding him all I could think was how long it had been since he allowed me to rock him.  He's never been much of a rocker, preferring to be left alone in his bed to fall asleep but early on we would sit together and rock, especially when he was nursing.  Being pregnant makes it difficult to hold him, even when he wants to be held and I know it's not going to get any easier when I have two clamoring for my attention.  And it won't be long before he's too big to rock at all.

It also occurred to me that in just a few weeks I will be sitting in that same chair with Emily, rocking her.  It seems like just yesterday that I was dancing with Eli in my bathroom after getting that first positive test.  And now we're only 5 weeks or so away from her arrival.  I'm not going to lie, I've been pretty uncomfortable the last couple weeks and I don't think it's going to get any better until she's here, but I know I'm going to miss being pregnant when she does.

It's just crazy how it seems like each day lasts forever and then you look back and months and years have passed in the blink of an eye.