Monday, November 29, 2010

Work, Thanksgiving and Spiders

So today is my first day back at work.  I've only been here for about 2 hours and I already miss being home so much!

That's part of the reason I have been so emotional for the past week or so.  Which leads to the rest of my post...

Doug had to work on Thanksgiving Day so Eli and I made the trip to Birmingham alone.  I was highly upset for one reason or another so I decided to stop by the cemetary on the way out of town.  Doug and I visit the cemetary fairly regularly, but I don't believe that Logan is there so my feelings about the cemetary are that I go there to keep his stone looking nice so that everyone that visits knows how much he is loved.  I don't feel like I have to go to the cemetary to visit Logan or talk to him, I do that everyday, no matter where I am.  But sometimes I like to go out there and sit quietly.  It feels like a magnetic pull for me when I'm having a bad day. 

It was a little chilly on Thanksgiving morning and I knew I was going to be quick so I decided to leave a sleeping Eli in the van while I sat with Logan.  I cleaned his stone up like I always do and took a look at all of his things to make sure everything was accounted for and in good shape.

That was when I noticed the three granddaddy longlegs on the side of Logan's stone.  To explain, I truly believe our loved ones who have pased away can send us signs.  Lots of angel mommies I know see butterflies or ladybugs.  I think my little Logan is mischievous and, knowing how much I hate spiders, sends them to me.  When I saw the spiders, I told Logan thanks for sending them and got back in the car.

I never dreamed that Logan would send me another sign the same day, but when we sat down for Thanksgiving dinner I had Eli in a bouncy seat right beside me.  At one point I looked down to check on him and there was another granddaddy longleg walking toward Eli.  So this year I got to spend Thanksgiving with my whole family!  It may have started out as a sad day for me, but when I saw that spider I knew that we were all together.

1 comment:

  1. Been thinking about you all day! I hope it went pretty good! It is almost time to go home!!!! Yipee!!!