12!

How is it possible that 12 years have passed since we met? It feels like a lifetime ago and yet like just yesterday.  I so wish you were here to celebrate with us.  Probably with a little pre-teen dramatics :) So often I try to imagine what life would be like with you here but it's just impossible. 

I miss being able to look over your bed, being able to touch you and hold you.  I wish I could know what your relationships with Eli and Emily would have been like. I wish I knew what you would look like at 12 years old. 

The day you were born was a blur but getting to spend those 17 days with you were some of the best days of my life.  I love you so much and even though I wish you were here, I wouldn't want to ask you to leave Heaven.  One day sweet boy we will celebrate together!

Love,
Mama